recognizing faces

i’m not sure whether it’s because i’m a visual learner or because my adhd makes me extremely detail oriented which in turn means i remember all of the useless tiny things no one else gives a shit about, but i just can’t forget faces.

seeing a bunch of ex-coworkers whom i never really talked to is a strange experience. especially because i know (or at least assume) they have no recollection of me. but i remember everything about them.

(except their names, because i am useless with that shit. to be fair, most of my time at h&m was spent either following alex around or looking for excuses to follow alex around. so i couldn’t really be bothered with not alex.)

most the time it makes me feel like a creeper.

also it makes me want to run and hide. i’m terrified of people from my past. because i’m always convinced people will want explanations for my disappearances, and i have none. or at least, not any i’m willing to admit to in front of other people.

getting close to people by sharing feelings to their faces? so overrated. feeling like a fugitive on the run in my own life? obviously so much better you guys.